The end of one and the beginning of the other...

I decided to give this blog a rest...for a very long time and start anew with Xanga instead.

http://www.xanga.com/se3keR

In every way, this blog mean a lot to me as the only channel for me to express my thoughts, my dissatisfaction, my struggles and yet I felt it is time to get a new blog. Not that there is anything special or different with the new blog but I felt I needed something new, something fresh...hope you guys will pay a visit to my new blog...

When everyone are busy....

It has been a while since I took time off to read articles and blogs. I guess I was always caught in that position where I don't seem to have enough time. Well, maybe this is what happen when one procrastinate their work. I'm one of those last minute people....haha!
But then I realized that almost all my close buddy seem to be busy with their lives.
It was then that I felt that I've not been interested in the lives of those who are left out in the community, people who couldn't really fit into the society anymore. Probably I don't really have that much time anymore especially as I grow into this stage of life where everyone seems to be busy somehow. Or maybe it was because of the expectation that I set for myself that is way beyond what I could do.
Anyway a simple phenomena that I had seen around me....not just around me, maybe even part of me. That most of us are selfish people that think about the good for ourselves and neglect the others. We only care for those who somehow give us benefits or are good to us as well...or have something to offer to us in return for our good towards them. While it is only normal that most people think in such a way yet I felt that we are called to something more than that.
Just the other day there was a farewell for a close friend of mine, Alicia and I wonder what is close the next minute. Will this friendship be as it is after a few more months? How will things change??
We are all busy with our lives...as we are caught by our selfish desires. Maybe this is where the words of Jesus came in true....that when we are dead to ourselves that we truly live.
While that challenge may seem impossible to us, I hope it manage to make you feel uncomfortable with what you are already doing or what you are not doing. The selfish nature is part of us yet I believe everyone of us knew that there is something more than what we want in life. And I hope that it would move us into a new dimension of exploring God and lives itself. Beyond religion itself...beyond the great sermons and words of knowledge but to take a bit of your time to just look at the people that you somehow neglected be it because you are busy or you don't bother at all....Look into their lives and see how much good one could do if one really put their heart into it.

If we are all too busy what would this world be??
I guess that's all for now....still got lots of stuff to do...haha!

It has been a while since I writing anything in my blog.
Was wondering what is the purpose of writing down these thoughts.
These thoughts are only perspective seen at this present time and when time moves on, all these becomes void. When the present moves into the future, it becomes the past and enters into a dimension where it cannot be recovered. The present remains to be what is it that I could see while the future remains as a hidden mystery that seem too BIG for me.
As the days continue to slowly move on, I realized that Form 6 is coming to an end. A new phase in life is about to come into picture.
Is it going to be a picture of a hero trying to save the world, or a picture of a selfish jerk trying to gain more, or is it going to be a picture of a man without any direction in life or a picture of a man allowing growth to take place on its own pace?
A lot of beautiful memories come into picture as I allowed my past to fill my thoughts...
What kind of world will this be as I move on?
A lot of things are in my head but none of it seem to be coming out completely. It is all in parts and it is like a puzzle with some missing pieces.
Just trying to think what is next...will blogging still be very part of me??

My dedication to my best friend.

It has been quite a while that I played this song to my friend on his birthday. If we hold on together.

I was reminded of the good memories I had in the past and sometimes moving on is really not that easy. To move on from where I am, saying goodbye with some of the closest friend I ever had and to meet up with new people...for me the moving on part is something that I find myself struggling to do it. Looking back at how this journey started with these bunch of friends, carrying this dream with me to build a better community and going through it with new friends and how problems come in here and there. Some of the goodbyes are really painful. It is probably those friendship that tore my spirit...my enthusiasm...
I look through the video today and I've seen how much life has changed for many of us yet something stays the same. The memories we shared, the love we poured out for one another and many of the friendship will not change even though we might not be together all the time like we used to.

I knew that I'm tired at the moment yet I knew the good thing is there are many who will hold my hand and go through this journey with me.

TRIBUTE TO THE CHAMPIONS...

Manchester United, EPL winner of 2007


Some players in the past...

Eric Cantona...a player that inspire United in his time...

David Beckham...who would have forgotten such stars...together with the many others...Butt, Keane, Giggs, Neville, Yorke, Cole, Schmeichel...in their famous treble....

Find another better team with such quality...basically there is none...now that Manchester United won the EPL again this year, a new stars are born...ready to repeat that famous win again...

After revisiting the past, let's come to the current team...but before that, here is a selection of songs for the CHAMPION.



Now for some 2007 actions....

Ronaldo...Player of the Year...an absolutely awesome performance this year...

These young guns are hungry for more victories...bad news for the other teams...









Getting better every year...

New faces, different football style (without Beckham, United would not be going for long ball...LOL!)


How else better to prove themselves as one of the BEST than to beat ROMA in such a way?

Final score: Manchester Utd 7 - 1 Roma

Not everyday I call someone my mui mui. Anyway today just got a mui mui for myself...so just wanted to put it into my blog. Well, it's just a special space that I could give her...=P

Well, great to have a sis like you...=P

Having fun in OXYGEN...haha!

Tired of being ME....I looked at what I've done today...felt tired of the need to stay strong. I knew I was frustrated with a lot of issues in my life. Family, friendship, Christianity, studies, love, future career, financial wise...all are in a mess.
People said father-son relationship normally becomes better when one enter into young adulthood as one is trying to seek what it means to be a man. As for me, things don't seem to be any better at the moment.
Friendship don't seem to be as it used to be. I've lost friends, found new ones, stick with some until now...and yet I realized things have become different. Maybe I've changed. I'm not as open as I used to be. So many things are kept inside me...the sharing part don't seem to be fully sincere anymore. I tried to approach to what my ex-principal, Mr Louis called...the last, lost and the least yet the more I gave of myself, the more I find that there is to be done and I really am running out of steam sooner than I thought I would. Some friends are there when I needed them...some are not there...some don't even care....some shed tears with you but that's where it all ended. I saw the need in the lives of my friends...I tried to help...I did what I could...yet I wonder how many actually bother if I care or not? How many even realized that this friend of theirs are also human being who constantly go through the same struggle as they did and maybe even far worse? Friendship...how does it look like? I remembered how awesome my class is...USS1 but seriously even these new family couldn't break that wall within me...the empty part within me that kills me bit by bit everyday. I'm only a man, a lonely man who travels in this journey inviting as many to join me in creating a better community yet I found myself falling far apart from where this dream should be heading towards.
Christianity...finding it hard to connect with Christians at times. Worship, preaching...how does it work anymore? Is God just as big as this? Probably the most disappointing time for me is when I felt that the church has forgotten about the small community I've been part of ever since I entered my teenage years. The cell groups that work together to create the spark and fire in the Youth Group were just left out....maybe even until today I could not find myself saying from the bottom of my heart that "It's ok" because I knew I felt something is terribly wrong here...and for me to still be going to the church and seeing people with BIG SMILES, I found myself having to keep all of it inside me...I really don't know where God is at these times.
Studies been getting worse each day and I knew all the blames go back to me myself for spending too much time on other things.
Love...I really don't know how it looks like anymore ever since the heart breaking time I went through the whole of last year. Am I now playing this game of love myself since the rule seems a lil too easy to follow as long as I don't pour out my heart but what is love anymore?
I'm tired...depressed...angry....yet time don't seem to wait for me...it keeps moving...
Maybe this is life indeed...full of ups and downs, sometimes all at the same time...